Benefits

Well the new policies were given out to everyone today, including me. Well they made some good changes! Some paid holidays - which is very nice. Cell phone usage, profanity, absence reporting - all have new guidelines. Which is very good!

Now they didn't do vacation - cause it's the middle of the year and a lot of people have alredy taken their's. But they are talking about it for January!

Idiot Central Again

Well it's Idiot Central time again! Some people just don't understand the necessity of giving a notice when they leave their job. We just had two boys quit here where I work and they don't seem to even think it's an issue! Their life, their way! I can't believe how ridiculous people can be without any forethought for others. They may have another job, but how hard with a day or two or even finish the current day be? Oh well, I'll step off the soap box now!

Profanity!

Well, well, well, it seems as though we have a profanity problem at my work! Yeah right, as if I hadn't noticed that in two years here! It looks like the management has decided to do something about it - never too late I say! They are changing the company policies and adding that into it. It should do some good to some people. We do have customers visit and other visitors at times. You never actually know who will be here - so it's probably a good idea. And I have noticed myself when I hang around with the "boys" for too long, I get that way too. So it'll help me too!

Some of the other changes I don't know about - but I've overheard some things. Looks like some more benefits - which is always good. And maybe some stronger wording on some things. I'll just have to be surprised when I see it like everyone else. I'm not included in this function - but I'm okay with it. I've learned my lesson about a lot of things recently even though it was a tough lesson to learn. But things have quieted down with that and my boss and I seem to be getting along okay - my feelings are still very very raw and I think rightly so. But then again I probably needed a kick in the pants for telling tales. Even if it was pillow talk with my husband....which I think everyone does. But it got turned on us when he made a sillly comment that even didn't state what he knew just that he agreed with someone about something - so now we know and we are doing differently.

Oh well, time to end the Profanity post today - wonder if I should end it with a cuss word? ROFL!!!

Added a new cutie to my Blog

I went to a blogger's website today - for some freebies for a scrap project; and she had the cutest thing out there - A CLOCK! No one seems to know what time zone I am in - so I put it on my blog and I'll point them out here now! COOL!

I'm doing okay - things are still rough between the husband and me - sometimes I wonder how anyone is to cope with this. And sometimes I wonder how many other people are coping with the same thing. It's horrible how living with someone can totally change your feelings about them. There are times I want to run away, times I want to hide, and sometimes I want to just chuck it all! Who knows where will be. We have lived through some tough things, but when does it get easier? Ever?

Well I also haven't said anything about my passion - well I suppose you could call it a hobby? Who knows! I love it - PSP - I work in Paint Shop Pro a lot and create tags for people on some yahoo groups. Tags are little picture graphics with a theme and their name on them that you can insert into emails to show something special about you. It's a lot of fun and I do so love it!

Update on meeting

Well I'm still feeling pretty abused and hurt. In fact, I'm probably just being paraonid. But everyday when my boss goes to lunch she asks if I want anything. Today, not a word. I'm not sure if she is just overwhelmed by all the stuff happening today that has nothing to do with me....or if it's me. I hate this. I'm getting sick to my stomach and I'm wanting to go home. And in fact, I don't even want to come back. That is what hurts the most. I thought I was okay here...but maybe I'm not. I know I'll probably feel different and probably exuding something negative, cause I can feel it around me, but I don't know what to do! I want to just sit here and cry and I know that won't help. I'm feeling really low and useless.

I hate meetings!

Oh well, I hate meetings. Screwed up again! What has happened to me since I moved here. I was never like this! I was the most organized, confidental, appropriate work environment person everyone I knew said so! I was completed and award for my confidentality. I don't understand what has gotten into me. For some reason I felt the need to repeat something - well gossip I suppose is the right word. And I got caught at it! How utterlly horrible. I know I have told some stuff before, but I always knew where it would go. I remember when I worked at the bank in MA that I had (still do thank goodness) a great friend and we could talk about anything. For some reason down here that is all different. They get some information and blow it out of propriation and pass it around like a new treat. Almost like they can't wait to see it come back and bite you where you shouldn't get bitten! It stinks and I could use other words but I won't! I'm so upset over this. My boss called me into the office yesterday about it. By the way I have multiple bosses. The one, a young woman, very nice - actually I really do like it. Well she was very diplomatic and told me what had happened and what she felt was the problem and that I needed to immediately fix it and see that it didn't happen again. I did verbally agreee with her; and even though I don't want to admit it, I also privately in my mind agreed with her. I made a bad decision. But the person I told should have kept my secret! God help that person! Well I talked to that person later on and told him in no uncertain terms that I was beyond annoyed. I was embarrased, scared for my job, his job, etc. I don't know if it will do any good, but I will no longer share work related information with him. Now to tell you who it is - my own husband!!! I can't believe he told a story out of our private life. As I felt, like most married couples feel, I'm sure, that you can talk to your husband about work, but the subject matter stays between the two of you. He may have slipped. He may have accidentally blurted out something and someone put two and two together - but that's beside the point. I will not put myself in that situation again! I will not tell him anything to do with work that isn't public knowledge. So with that in mind, I'm still seething about it. How could that person, whoever it was, do that to me. Go in and tell my boss whatever they said to her to make her meet with me like that. I am beyond embarrassed, I'm hurt. It's a small group of people and believe it not I have analyzed and narrowed it down to three people. I couldn't possibly be more hurt. The three that could have done it - I thought were friends - well at least I thought they cared. I've been here almost two years and I thought I had a few friends, not necessarily deep long term lasting forever friendships.......but at least nice people that might come to me if they saw I did something wrong. Goodness me - I can't believe it - I'm so hurt by this. I have fed them home made goodies, bought them in special treats, etc. Never again - even though I think that even to me, sounds mean. But I just can't do it. To imagine I've done that special stuff - even made home made treats that they requested - nope, no way, no how. Not again. I'm sitting her seething and hurt. I don't even want to see those three people! HOW DARE THEY!!!!

Work and Unknown Avenues

Hi - well I made myself a promise that I would try to blog everyday - so here I am - the next day after I made the promise actually doing it! Today is a work day as are most Monday through Fridays. I work for a small family based pallet manufacturing business. Most days I love my job and find it very fascinating and to tell the truth pretty darn easy after all the horrible and stressed jobs I have had in the past. Well today is a stressed idiot day! My boss, one of the owners of the company is on vacation and the rest of the family is attempting to work at things without him. Since it is a customer relations based business, my feeling (maybe I'm wrong here but it was the way I was raised as well as the way I was taught in every job I have worked so far till I moved here to Tennessee) that the customer comes first! Well today I took a phone call from one of larger volume customers asking for a quote on a pallet. When I gave the information to the other two family members they said what do you want us to do? They said they don't know how to give quotes - how can a company do that to the customer? Just because someone is not here the rest of the business is to shut down? Am I the only one who feels this way? I'm totally confused about this concept. You have to give the customer an answer at some point - you can't tell them to wait? Can you? How inappropriate is that? I feel totally. So I'm a bit ticked off because they expected me to call that customer and tell him to wait for my boss' return!!! How can that be done? I look like a fool saying that and so does the company as a whole. Maybe I'm blowing this out of proportion - maybe they have done this before - I don't know - but this is downright ridiculous! Sometimes I wonder about this place and other times like this I wonder why I am here. I love doing a good job and it is impossible sometimes to do that when you are surrounding by people who think the world can wait on them to answer!!!

Wow been a while

Wow it's been a while since I posted on the blog. I'm doing okay - having major issues with allergies. But it'll all work out if we get some rain. My husband and I are still having difficulties - nothing new there - I think it's my lot in life to deal with this some how some way. I went away with my sister in law to Kentucky for a Dog Show - it was lovely. Great time - our new dog did wonderful. The city was a little weird - too close to the airport for me. I think I've become a country girl all the way around and I don't like the city anymore!